The Transmission of the Lamp ~ 06

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event type discourse
date & time 29 May 1986 am
location Punta Del Este, Montevideo, Uruguay
language English
audio Available, duration 1h 24min. Quality: good.
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shorttitle TRANSM06
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synopsis
Reader of the questions: Ma Prem Maneesha.
Question 1
Beloved Osho, when I was a boy, between twelve and fifteen years old, I often had, lying in my bed in the dark, strange experiences which I loved very much. It started by my imagining that my bed disappeared, then my room, the house, the town, all people, the country, the whole globe... everything in the universe faded. There was utter darkness and silence; I was just floating in space.
The disappearance of the last material things created a tremendous whirling around me. I was sucked into it; this feeling was almost sexual. It created a sweet, pulling sensation in my belly, which could last for seconds or sometimes for one to two minutes.
I never talked to my parents or anybody else about it, because I feared they might think me mad.
Osho, what was this experience?
Question 2
Beloved Osho, the other night, along with a few other people, I was hypnotized by Kaveesha. When she began by asking us to take deep breaths -- the Zen flute playing, the incense and the candle burning -- I immediately went into a space where my chest felt full, like tears were welling up inside. I felt like I was in a space that I once was in before -- a place where I was closest to my inner home, a place my body was relaxed in, where meditation came naturally and the surroundings were warm.
Why was there sadness coming up when this experience was happening?
Question 3
Beloved Osho, I feel emotionally totally exhausted. Something is ripping me apart, but I can't figure out what. In the last few days I've been through intense spells of hating myself. It feels like an attack, and it looks impossible to love such a creature. On another level I am telling myself to watch, be aware of these emotions, telling myself they are not real. But when I am caught up in them, everything is totally real -- it just depends on what level has the upper hand at the time. When I step outside of this inner turmoil I can see this insane person going through her daily routine, acting quite normally.
Is this the way to grow, or am I just plainly cuckoo, schizophrenic, stuck in a circle?
Question 4 from Sw Milarepa
Beloved Osho, why do Ii always feel like you are pulling my big toe when you answer my questions?


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